4. If I become ruins, then the house will no longer collapse.

The next day, the sky churned with heavy clouds, distant rumbles faintly echoing now and then. Rain slanted in the shifting wind, weaving like a delicate mist, ethereal and dancing.

A fresh scent permeated the air.

Raindrops slid down the glass, pooling on the windowsill and rippling softly.

Tsukasa Harano washed his face with cold water. The refreshing chill seeped into his pores, clearing his mind. After drying the water droplets clinging to the ends of his hair with a towel, he lifted his gaze to the mirror.

His nose was sharp and prominent, his face slimly contoured.

He had cut his once shoulder-length hair short just two days ago after work, now looking even more neat and crisp.

Not exactly a Tokyo heartthrob.

His features were average, typical of an ordinary person.

After all, how many true heartthrobs does Tokyo really have?

More often, Tokyo was filled with corporate drones—polite on the surface when meeting people but inwardly lifeless and drained. The so-called handsome men were often lacking in masculinity.

Apart from being slightly thin and somewhat frail due to nearly no exercise since graduating university, he bore no glaring flaws. By all rights, he should have lived a normal life—married, had children, and trudged through the years like any other salaryman. Yet, he had chosen to end his life at this age.

There was, of course, a reason.

Tsukasa Harano was twenty-four years old, hailing from Kitatsuru District in Yamanashi Prefecture. He graduated from Tokyo University of Agriculture and Technology, majoring in the Department of Agricultural Sciences, specializing in Biological Production.

His father had died of cancer five years ago.

His mother ran a convenience store in their rural hometown.

While Tokyo University of Agriculture and Technology was far from the prestige of the University of Tokyo or Keio University, it ranked within the top twenty among national universities, a respectable institution. Professionally, Tsukasa should have secured a decent agricultural job.

But in reality, he did not.

Not because of sabotage.

Nor was it due to a lack of job offers.

He declined employment offers from agricultural corporations, choosing instead to start his own farming business.

Yes, entrepreneurship. Farming.

With savings from part-time jobs during university and support from his mother, Tsukasa rented ten acres of land in Saitama Prefecture and attempted modern cultivation of improved melons, hoping to grow fruits in the Tokyo region that were typically exclusive to Hokkaido.

This was not a reckless decision; he had modeled his plan after many papers by graduate seniors and professors.

But modeling remained just theory.

The outcome was predictable.

All the invested capital went up in flames.

This failure shattered Tsukasa’s original ambitions. He spent months in a fog of despair in his rented room, only recovering slowly after his mother came from Yamanashi almost every week to comfort him. Yet, the wound remained.

To avoid burdening his mother with guilt for exhausting her years of savings, he refused her offer to return and work in the countryside, stubbornly staying in Tokyo.

This time, he no longer wanted anything to do with agriculture.

Because that one failed venture had exposed him to trials he had never faced within his ivory tower.

Lack of startup funds, the slim hope of attracting investment, difficulties in securing loans, endless obstruction from the farmers’ association—each obstacle left him bewildered, utterly disillusioned with the supposed governmental support for agriculture he had learned about in textbooks.

To survive, Tsukasa had worked as a subway promoter, convenience store stock clerk, and truck loader.

Then, at the start of the year before last, persuaded by his mother and friends, he took the local civil service exam in Tokyo, passed, and was employed at the Bunkyo Ward Office, finally securing a stable job.

However, civil servants in Japan, especially local ones, were not held in high esteem.

Low income, low status, limited promotion prospects.

Better to leave this bleak life behind than continue bearing its burdens.

With such thoughts, Tsukasa had vacillated through nearly two years of dull monotony, sinking deeper into despair until a week ago, when he died by charcoal burning suicide in his rented room, leaving no note.

Tsukasa Harano had no judgment on this.

Even though in his own mind he thought his past self lacked resilience and was irresponsible toward his family, he had inhabited that body without sharing its despair.

Compared to that self, Tsukasa was fortunate—he came into this world with the means to stand on his feet.

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Now, he could earn money simply by lying down.

More than double the annual salary of his previous job.

With just the automatic salary increase, Tsukasa could make a living in this dazzling international metropolis.

And this was only the beginning.

The list of dark desires surely held many unknowns yet to be explored. Tsukasa could ride it straight onto life’s fast track to pleasure. Though it required initial effort and time, life’s ups and downs were a precious experience.

Especially when money was no object.

Furthermore, the list of dark desires affected only women. Whether this would bring him a tarnished reputation or trouble due to inevitable frequent contact with many troublesome women…

That was certain.

“Dark desires” referred to illicit thoughts that contradicted one’s objective circumstances or ran counter to mainstream social values. Tsukasa’s goal was to realize these women’s dark desires. Naturally, this conflicted with his own nature, but with a flexible moral baseline, he was capable of contending with wicked women.

He did not find this troublesome.

Instead, he felt somewhat exhilarated.

Though he claimed to dislike manipulative women, who wouldn’t want the confidence to have several charming ladies orbiting around them?

The difference lay only in who controlled whom.

This question was akin to choosing whether to be a master of money or its slave. Having confidence without losing oneself—that was what he must heed.

As for whether Tsukasa would become entangled with some of these wicked women, facing moral condemnation, he had already made his choice firmly in his heart.

“I become ruins, and the house won’t collapse.”

Tsukasa looked at himself in the mirror, resolved, then averted his gaze and left the washroom.

He put on his suit, selected a blue striped tie, arranged everything meticulously. His leather shoes shone brightly—a habit ingrained into muscle memory.

After all, Japanese civil servants belonged to the service industry.

Appearance had to be impeccable.

He grabbed his laptop bag, took out the trash, and stepped outside.

Rain was falling. Tsukasa took a cheap, transparent umbrella from a convenience store, tossed out the garbage, and walked to Ikebukuro Station. He swiped his card and entered the platform bound for Bunkyo Ward, where muddy footprints marked the floor.

After getting off the train, he walked to Kasugacho.

Tokyo in June was warming up. Though the long and irritable rainy season had passed, the weather remained unpredictable, influenced by coastal warm currents.

Tsukasa, like any ordinary office worker, strolled along the street edges, umbrella in hand, heading to work.

But just outside the Bunkyo Ward Office, a small bus converted into a mobile campaign vehicle stood in the plaza opposite the office. A rain canopy sheltered a one-meter-wide screen, surrounded by many onlookers.

On the screen, a voluptuous and sexy young woman spoke—a candidate for Governor of Tokyo, campaigning for votes.

The Governor of Tokyo was effectively the city’s mayor.

The election for a new governor was underway, so campaign posters were plastered everywhere, even on Tsukasa’s building downstairs.

“Uchino-chan, I love you!”

“Uchino! Uchino!”

“This is the kind of person who should be governor!”

“Go for it! You can do it!”

The gathered men shouted enthusiastically, their faces wild with excitement. Several raised their arms in cheer.

On the stage of the mobile campaign bus, the charming and curvaceous young woman removed her rain-soaked white shirt, revealing a strikingly large, pale chest—the “white northern hemisphere” deployed as a powerful weapon.

“Not only cute, but sexy, right?”

She leaned close to the microphone, speaking in a sultry voice, paired with a sweet, shy smile that drew even more cheers from the men.

It was hard to imagine this was a campaign for mayor.

But such scenes were common in Japan.

If he had to choose, Tsukasa would definitely vote for Chika Fujiwara.

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